Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Beginnings

Huge hello to the big wide web....or the black hole as sometimes felt....

Now lets get this clear, i have other blogs..

More shiny and well rounded blogs that show that i have been at one stage or another obsessed with
Scrapbooking and such, have to admit my heart was in the right place and the community is both filled with support and inspiring women.

But that's not what this blog is about,

this is more for myself, i don't expect anyone to listen, nor take the time to follow or what blogs are for these days,

this is my new little window to explore where i am now heading in m life and in my path of creative Artist...at least I'd like to think...lol we are all little artist in one way or another....

I'll explore that in another post....

Back to the Beginning....

Clear slate, where am i at and where do i want to go....

I have been struggling with myself and my creative expression for sometime,
I have had loss of mojo before, but this is more of boredom and a hint of why bother....

I know I'm missing something, since i have stopped creating and just doing my eat, sleep, work routine, life has lost its sparkle, my drive to achieve and get into my colours has just fallen flat....

I known it comes down to myself to just knuckle down and just play with some god dam paint!!

I have tried the online workshops, i have been gathering images and snippets of play things
but to make myself want to create is a mission, tried a few times and just turned out frustrated and just creating a mess.....lol

I have had a few brainstorming sessions and want to get into a new stage of creating wearable art
and just more collage and Art journal ling....

I thought hafe my problem has to do with my work space and time management

I even thought i would benefit from a few new tools to help me create with Photo shop and digital stuff.....but i feel so drained .....by the time i think i want to ....life's must come charging in and taking my time.....lol

Arh hell, even the idea of just creating is getting me worked up.....

Funny though i have noticed a changein my past times,

I would spend hours upon hours just scrapbooking for challenges, forums and even creating things to sell through my own small hobby business,

I was achieving in all areas i wanted to with scrapbooking, Designing for a couple of shops and even a scapbooking kit seller, i have been published and such in scrapbooking magazines and i just felt i had reached where i wanted to ...

I have two boys, i just can't see them looking at my scrapbooking pages when they are in their teens and old, they would be more interested in the photos, which i totally understand, i would be too....

So with that in mind and the amount of scrapbooking layouts storage is a big issues...
No one mentioned the amount of layouts you would have after a few years of obsessive scrapping...lol

So there is how it all came undone....even though i have piles of supplies left...and i do mean piles! I'm left with the massive task of clearing up my study/work area.....

trying to just sift through it all and sell what i can, and .....i don't know with the rest....I'm not sure if i want to keep it, I'm not sure i want to do anything like that any more....

I want to focus more on photograph, capturing the moments  want to keep for ever,
Then spending time with my family ....
Reading is my next best thing and my partner has giving me a little in sight to gaming, which is something i can share with all my boys :]

I think i have just answered my own question, i know i don't want to....
I have had my fill, know it's time to move on.....

Just such a mission when one room in your house is over run with scrapping stuff???